I thank God for letting me get in for the UK trip. I can see that after so many nights of praying, God answered and heard my prayers. Well, maybe what Drusilla said is true. We just have to trust more. It's hard, but sometimes, the only best way, is to have Faith.

Well, today I'm really sorry to everyone in school. I was irritated today and I have no idea why too. I'm sorry. Besides that, I've taught about all these things bothering me right now. I can't figure out why I'm like that. Maybe I need to feel God once more. I don't know, after so many things happened, I don't know if He's really there with me. It's quite hard.

What bothers me the most is that people are always saying that how much they really really are willing to die for Jesus, but than when judgement day comes, they all are the first ones to leave and deny that they are believers. I'm not saying everyone is this way. I'm not saying that everyone is just being hypocritical about them proclaiming their love for God. But sometimes when we are faced with difficulties and trials, than we suddenly realised that why doesn't He answer my prayers or is He even here ? But I know that it takes a lot out from all of us to really believe that He is here no matter what. But I know that it's hard, but sometimes, a little miracle, gets us back on track with Him. You know, when the day comes, I'm afraid I would run away. I don't know what I'm going to do. I don't know.

Can anyone of you tell me, what is it like to be loved ?
And thank you to Joey, for making me happy today :)